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28.5.04
7:16 PM

got nutting else to say 'bout how i felt...
Kosong by Dewa 19
Kamu seperti hantu
Terus menghantuiku
Ke mana pun tubuhku pergi
Kau terus membayangi aku
Salahku biarkan kamu
Bermain dengan hatiku
Aku tak bisa memusnahkan
Kau dari pikiranku ini

Di dalam keramaian aku masih merasa sepi
Sendiri memikirkan kamu
Kau genggam hatiku
Dan kau tuliskan namamu
Kau tulis namamu

Tubuhku ada di sini
Tetapi tidak jiwaku
Kosong yang hanya kurasakan
Kau telah tinggal di hatiku





26.5.04
1:45 PM

if only i have one wish, i wish that i can be wif u!!!
new update!!!from the bottom of my heart; thanks to all my friends esp Salwa,Nadia,Ili and Helmi for helping me di saat2 kegilaan ini melanda....to Leen and Fazz thanks for supporting me....Fazz,hopefully kali nih tak "pupus" walaupun "jauh".dedicate this song to all my best friends...i can't think straight without u guys + gurlss..My heart is inside me.Here, here, here.It's beats very quietly. Hear, hear, hear.My heart keeps me happy.Cheer, cheer, cheer!btw,dun't worry my friends,i dun't put too much hope cos i luv you all more than "this someone"...and if this is not for real, i dun't feel sad about it...

Temani aku - Sheila on 7
Layaknya gelap malam
Yang indah karna bintang
Layaknya sang penyair
Yang elok karna puisi

Bagiku kau bintang
Selayaknya puisi
Tetaplah di sini peri kecilku
Bagiku kau bintang
Selayaknya puisi
Temani aku selamanya

Selamanya...
Selamanya... selamanya...
Selamanya... selamanya...
Selamanya... selamanya...
Selamanya...






24.5.04
4:52 AM

tak pernah ku mencuba..
been crazy the whole weekends...suddenly felt "terextra" overwhelmed. Happy + hyper tetiba..but that's not the pt here...for sum ppl, maybe they can guess why i was happy this past 2-3 days...=)Anyway,sedang seronok melayan perasaan gumbira + s.s., suddenly terdetik perasaan bersalah...bersalah??to whom??i think i owe an apology to all my frenzz for not listening to them..because of "this",i've been acting kinda ridiculous....just thinking 'bout myself....i really appreciate all of ur advice,love and faith in me...thanks a lot for being there for me...to Salwa,Denise,Helmi and Fazz;thank you for understanding wut i'm feeling now.also thanx for sharing my craziness + addiction to _______..and to others thanks also...i cannot describe how guilty i am for being "self-interested" for the past 1 weeks...
currently listenig to:Pupus(Dewa 19)


Aku tak mengerti
apa yang kurasa,
Rindu yang tak pernah
begitu hebatnya
Aku mencintaimu lebih dari yang kau tahu
Meski kau tak akan pernah tahu
Aku persembahkan
hidupku untukmu,
Telah kurelakan
hatiku padamu,
Namun kau masih bisu
diam seribu bahasa
Dan hati kecilku bicara
Baru kusadari
Cintaku bertepuk sebelah tangan
Kau buat remuk seluruh hatiku
Semoga waktu akan mengilhami
sisi hatimu yang beku,
Semoga akan datang keajaiban,
hingga akhirnya kaupun mau

Aku mencintaimu
Lebih dari yang kau tahu
Meski kau tak kan pernah tahu



20.5.04
9:08 AM

i've got nuttin to say and i've got lost in the nottingness inside of me...
tak tahu mana nak start tp i really have nuttin to write about(my life is not as interesting as yours!=P)anyway, just looking forward for final exam cos i really need a long break now....i wanna be free from the whole uni thing..been through the whole relationship things this last 2 months...friends,lovers and families...anyway,i miss my family..haven't talk to them for 2 weeks now...continued...actually why i was talking 'bout relationships is because i've seen a lot of my friends happened to have jump into the irony of relationship..today you're madly in love the next day you feel nuttin...same wif friends...sometimes when you need somebody to talk, you turned to them and tell them everything...but whenever you didn't need them, you just turn your back and walk away...there's also platonic friends...friends but not really friends...they seem close to each other but they never talk to each other...never shared anything like true friends do...


13.5.04
9:16 AM

storyline
got nutting really to tell about..just finish my first lecture for today...it started at 8 a.m. in the morning...very sleepy but i forced myself not to fall sleep...anyway got lotsa thing coming up after this...gonaa spend another two hours in Java lecture...then got tutorial presentation which i hate regardless of how cute the tutor is...i still feel like to escape the tute!!!!then,we've got International nite tonite at 5 p.m.chao!!


10.5.04
11:22 PM

just boring facts about me!!

A - Age: 19

B - Band listening to right now: dewa 19

C - Career in future: not sure yet

D - Dad's name: Mohd Sukri

E - Easiest person to talk to: Salwa!

F - Favourite song at the moment: try- nelly furtado

G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: gummy worms...

H - Hometown: kerteh

I - Instruments: Drums

K - Kids preference for the future: girl

L - Longest car ride ever: 2 hours to the Seaworld

M - Mom's name: Zaleha

N - Number of siblings: 6(3 boys + 3 gurlls)

P - Phobia[s]: small and crowded places/room

Q - Favourite Quote: sori ya!!!<---got it from Zahnita in Kuliah Cinta..:P

R - Reason to smile: senyum itu sedekah!

S - Song you sang last: biru - oag

T - Time you wake up: 7.47 a.m.

U - Unknown fact about me:

V - Vegetable you hate: broccoli

W - Worst habit: can survive without taking bath a week

X-rays you've had: once for medical check-up

Y - Yummy food:nasi lemak ikan bilis.

Z - Zodiac sign: sagitarius


9.5.04
4:05 PM

storyline...
Part 1
went to Byron Bay yesterday. very nice place....better than noosa kot, cos not too many ppl here and it's very proper planned.the shop and the toilet is not very far from the beach..and there is a playground nearby...and people over there is very friendly and they respect you...rewang2 kat kedai-kedai yg ada but didn't get a chance to buy anything xcept for Denise;she'd bought heaps of souvenirs. then we went to the cape byron, the light house!!! terkesima seketika melihat keluasan laut yg seperti tak bertepi...it's kinda cold up there cos of the rain and cloudy weather but very nicelaaa...Denise and Fazz took lotsa pix..head home after spending almost like 40 mins on top of cape byron. it's raining heavily on the way back therefore the bus driver decided not to used the other road which got all the beautiful coast scenery...anyway everybody started to get really tired and mostly were sleeping...it'dark too and you can't hardly see anything anyway!!
Part 2
just wasting my time again this weekend...not really a weekend for me cos of workloads that cried out for me to finish them off...it's getting harder and harder everyday...not just physically harder but also mentally challenging...been in a state of blur,fuzzy and a lil bit mad about everything!!!:(i feel like wanna run and never gonna stop running....


4.5.04
9:58 PM

just another day...
macam biasa...just do my life routine as usual. nuttin really interesting happened. Jaga booth for BB tix again today wif Laura, Liza and Helmi. then,skip my ECON lecture...so,have to replace it tomorrow.which mean i will have two two hours lecture straight ahead...later that evening went for netball game...it was fun eventhough we didn't win.btw, i'm really tired now...got tons of assignments that need to be done....so mite stay up or sleep first and try to finish it after subuh....


3.5.04
11:53 AM

WHAT'S IN YOUR NAME?
Recent studies by name societies disclosed that names influence character and do have a definite bearing upon one's life path. letters carry their own energy patterns relating to personality traits and needs. Name analysis using letter qualities is called ACROPHONOLOGY. This analysis of your name is a brief summary of the hidden meanings found within the letters of your own name.

NAME ANALYSIS FOR: Nurul Syahida

Nurul :
You tend to be critical of yourself, not always expressing your true desires. You have an interest in health and health matters. You are soft-hearted with a charitable nature. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You need to learn the meaning of true giving. You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you.

Syahida:
Status is important to you and your ability to achieve success and earn money. You have a need to be noticed and seek status. Your independence and freedom are important to you. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You work hard to achieve material success through your own efforts. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You have a discriminating nature coupled with perseverance and family pride. You have a need to be up front.




1.5.04
3:41 AM

weekend again..
just finished another hectic, pack week..went to UMNO QLD AGM....choosed new comittee today...anyway got msd and petronas gath tomorrow...tak henti2 jumper org this week..penat btol...sumtimes i feel very dull about it...just wish i've got a day off to spend by myself...heehhhee..i'm sori and i dunt care if ppl says that i dun't have a life but i prefered to spend my time at home...i'm not kinda ppl that luv to be out there a lot and socialize..talking bout not having a life,me,Salwa and Helmi kinda discuss about it...as a summary i agree wif them that life is very subjectives...you cannot judge somebody else's life with your way of life...it will never be the same..we choose our way of life from the way we've been brought up...from the experience that we have...so,wut's is having a life anyway??it's more than having fun,studying and stuff..keep thinking bout it...still not sleeping eventhough the clock now is 3.40 a.m. i think i just wait for the subuh prayer and then sleep...furthermore i cannot sleep cos of the coffee and cucur..makan cam anak badak....kill the time playing scrabble with Salwa and Helmi..kalah teruk..then make some more coffee...got this for Fazz..just for fun!!!
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