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31.1.05
3:33 PM

tangled?
another day passed with many little things occured...
i dunno how to put in words and i dun't think it's interesting to share anyway....
been following the tennis cup on and off...same as well with the library....it's tiring though cos it's hot!!!waaa....been thinking of going to Umart to "usha" modem...i mite just buy it from there anyway cos it's cheap.Thanx to Anisah for the suggestion...i've put the phone line already. so,as the line is available now,i'd called a couple of people to catch up with the latest and hot news in Malaysia...finally,it's for sure; Marat Safin did won the Australian Open...yes!!!some more: i didn't have anything to add as maybe many can imagined being here in foreign country is boring if u're alone and have nutting to do(besides study..) so like i say before...shifting forth and back to the uni...but it's alrite...just need to put some hardwork on my sociology now...can't wait to hear what Andrew will say about the tennis open tournament...for sure he'll go berserk about the commentator...but i'd feel it too...oh,no!


29.1.05
1:22 PM

::facts of life?::

Underwear Goes Inside The Pants
by Lazyboy

Why is marijuana not legal? Why is marijuana not legal?
It’s a natural plant that grows in the dirt.
Do you know what’s not natural?
80 year old dudes with hard-ons. That’s not natural.
But we got pills for that.
We’re dedicating all our medical resources to keeping the old guys erect,
but we’re putting people in jail for smoking something that grows in the dirt?

You know we have more prescription drugs now.
Every commercial that comes on TV is a prescription drug ad.
I can’t watch TV for four minutes without thinking
I have five serious diseases.
Like: “Do you ever wake up tired in the morning?”
Oh my god I have this, write this down.
Whatever it is, I have it.
Half the time you don’t even know what the commercial is…
people running in fields or flying kites or swimming in the ocean.
I’m like that is the greatest disease ever.
How do you get that?
That disease comes with a hot chick and a puppy.

The schools now…
It is all about self-esteem in the schools now.
Build the kids’ self-esteem,
make them feel good about themselves.
If everybody grows up with high self-esteem,
who is going to dance in our strip clubs?
What’s going to happen to our porno industry?
These women don’t just grown on trees.
It takes lots of drunk daddys missing dance recitals
before you decide to blow a goat on the internet for fifty bucks.
And if that disappears,
where does that leave me on a Friday
with my new high speed connection?

Masterminds are another word that comes up all the time.
You keep hearing about these terrorists masterminds
that get killed in the middle east.
Terrorists masterminds.
Mastermind is sort of a lofty way to describe
what these guys do, don’t you think?
They’re not masterminds.
“OK, you take bomb, right? And you put in backpack.
And you get on bus and you blow yourself up. Alright?”
“Why do I have to blow myself up? Why can’t I just…”
“Who’s the fucking mastermind here? Me or you?”

Americans, let’s face it: We’ve been a spoiled country for a long time.
Do you know what the number one health risk in America is?
Obesity. obesity
They say we’re in the middle of an obesity epidemic.
An epidemic like it is polio.
Like we’ll be telling our grand kids about it one day.
The Great Obesity Epidemic of 2004.
“How’d you get through it grandpa?”
“Oh, it was horrible Johnny,
there was cheesecake and pork chops everywhere.”


Nobody knows why we're getting fatter? Look at our lifestyle.I’ll sit at a drive thru.
I’ll sit there behind fifteen other cars instead of getting up to
make the eight foot walk to the totally empty counter.
Everything is mega meal, super sized.
Want biggie fries with that?, want a jumbo fries with that?, want to go large.
You want to have thirty burgers for a nickel you fat mother fucker.
There’s room in the back. Take it!
Want a 55 gallon drum of Coke with that?
It’s only three more cents.
Sometimes you have to suffer a little in your youth
to motivate yourself to succeed in later life.
Do you think if Bill Gates got laid in high school,
do you think there’d be a Microsoft?
Of course not.
You got to spend a long time stuffed in your own locker with your underwear
wedged up your ass before you start to think,
“I’m going to take of the world with computers! you'll see, I’ll show them.”

We’re in one of the richest countries in the world,
but the minimum wage is lower than it was thirty five years ago.
There are homeless people everywhere.
This homeless guy asked me for money the other day.
I was about to give it to him and then
I thought he was going to use it on drugs or alcohol.
And then I thought, that’s what I’m going to use it on.
Why am I judging this poor bastard.
People love to judge homeless guys.
Like if you give them money they’re just going to waste it.
Well, he lives in a box, what do you want him to do?
Save it up and buy a wall unit. He’s homeless.
I walked behind this guy the other day.
A homeless guy asked him for money.
He looks right at the homeless guy and says,
"Why don’t you go get a job you bum?"
People always say that to homeless guys like it is so easy.
This homeless guy was wearing his underwear outside his pants.
Outside his pants.
I’m guessing his resume isn’t all up to date.
I’m predicting some problems during the interview process.
I’m pretty sure even McDonalds has an
“underwear goes inside the pants” policy.
Not that they enforce it really strictly,
but technically I’m sure it is on the books.

**sociologically maybe this is wut most of the societies are becoming now...is it just because we're humans bound with the weakness that we cannot stop to control?


24.1.05
2:37 PM

no phone
tak mo tulih panjang2....ni no phone umah: 0738701537,so,kalo dah takde keje tuh rerajin laa call yeee...tapi esok baru line tu boley dipakai...jadik kalo kall ari nih,no use...!


21.1.05
9:37 AM

::Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha:
Maaflah kepada semua,i just can reach y'all out from here.Firstly, sempena hari yang mulia ini, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha buat semua!Maaf Zahir dan Batin!!!Dah cukup berkorbankah kita sampai hari ni?Baru je balik dari Solat Sunat Aidiladha.Went there with Kak Su,Syahrom,Kak Ros and Elok.Jumpe the rest of the gang kat Kuruwatha.Tak sangka yer,sekali lagi saya sambut raya,and disambutnya disini....:)cepat betul masa berlalu,pejam celik pejam celik ,my studies pon dah towards the end,my lil' sis pon dah masuk darjah satu.heheheeh..camnerlaa makcik tuh??mesti my mum need to wait for her 24/7...my lil' bro,Korie pon dah masuk form 1.Warghh..everything's changing and it happen so fast that sumtimes i'd miss so many things.agaknya,inilah pengorbanan dan cabaran that i need to face. I have to sacrifise my time and attention to wut i luv just to excel in future.and my parents pon sama2 berkorban dalam semua perkara just to make sure i do have a future.dan i feel sorry that i cannot do as best as i can and always makes them worry...takpe,insyaallah kalo report kad tak cantik kat sini,hopefully yang disana will make you both proud.miss them both so much.thanks for everything.Sebab hari nih Hari Raya Korban,just want to reflect kepada kisah Nabi Ibrahim A.S. dan anaknya,Ismail.Rasanya maybe semua dah tahu kisah wahyu Allah yang menyuruh baginda menyembelih Ismail.kalau tak tahu, bukak balik buku kisah2 nabi:P.Betapa besarnya pengorbanan yang dibuat oleh Nabi Ibrahim,mengorbankan kasih sayang dia pada Ismail,just to please and obey Allah's words(Baginda pertama kali bertemu Ismail pada waktu tu).Tapi pengorbanan baginda dibalas dengan rahmat oleh sang Pencipta apabila Allah menggantikan diri Ismail dengan seekor kibas .Betapa Allah sangat pemurah dan pengasih,Dia tak pernah mensia2kan pengorbanan hambanya.I mean,sebenarnya,sesusah mana pon sesuatu perkara,kalau kita redha dan tawakal pada Dia, pasti akan berkat.Mungkin sometimes kita tertanya2 dan rasa marah if sumthing that kita harap2kan tak menjadi,lebey2 lagi kalo memang kita dah berusaha sedaya upaya,berdoa dan sewaktu dengannya.Tapi maybe dengan itu Allah nak suruh kita jadi lebey bersabar,lebey memahami tentang diri kita and where do we really stand.Sebab disebalik kesusahan itu pasti ada kesenangan.


18.1.05
1:20 PM

::update::
tak banyak mende yang boleh ditulih as saya memang takde apa nak direportkan.cuma,semenjak-dua menjak nih,hujan turun dan cuaca dok asyik mendung jerk..saya juga tak dapatlaa nak kemana2 as takder geng dan terikat dengan summer course.alang2 dok sensorg nih,saya bertekadlaa untuk memastikan at least saya dapat 6 untuk subject sociologi nih...yerlaa...dah dok sensorg,mesti tumpuan pon mantap ekk??(heheeheh..tak jugak!!)dahlaa jugak usha2 ngan Encik Azree about the new scholars...katanya 2 orang aje yang setakat nih konfem dan dua2 pompuan..hurmm....apa lagi yekk???


13.1.05
11:56 AM

::mute::
Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would bring me back to you
That someday it would bring me back to you

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on sunday morning
And I never want to leave

Fingers trace your every outline
Paint a picture with my hands
Back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
Change the weather still together when it ends

That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow on sunday morning
And I never want to leave

But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
Sunday morning rain is falling and I?m calling out to you
Singing someday it?ll bring me back to you
Find a way to bring myself home to you

And you may not know
That may be all I need
In darkness she is all I see
Come and rest your bones with me
Driving slow?


*got nuttin to do really..i dun't have anything to update either...

**malas nak tulis entry baru..just continue here....yipeee!!!finished my essay finally...gotta call home later...oklaaa...aku takde mende nak tulih...nanti kalo ada new stuff to wirte,it'll be here....!


12.1.05
1:27 PM

who does this boy belong to?



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11.1.05
4:08 PM

another day
nuttin much,just been working on my essay..almost finish,and hope i can finish it ASAP....waaa..dah tak sanggup nak berjaga tiap2 malam...tension....went to Rofi's house the other day,with Kak Su and Anisah...Just went there to visit Rofi's wife,Zattul...didn't bring my camera,if not i can put some pixs here....then went to Kak Asma house...oklaa...better start carik 'literature' lagi for my assignment...6 books not enuff as references for sociology essay...waa,better start find another 20 books before the lecturer nag at me....:P

On a Monday I am waiting
Tuesday I am fading
And by Wednesday I can't sleep
Then my the phone rings,
I hear you
and the darkness is a clear view
I see you've come to rescue me...

Fall, with you I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath
I hope it lasts

Ohh..
Seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohh..
It's as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody and messy
I get restless and its senseless
And you never seem to care
When I'm angry,
You listen
When you're happy it's a mission
And you won't stop till I'm there

Fall, sometimes I fall so fast
Well I hit that far don't crash
You're all I have

Ohh..
It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohh..
It's as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know
Everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face
I hope it never goes away
Yeah..

On a Monday I am waiting
By Tuesday I am fading
Into your arms
So I can breathe

Ohh..
It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohh..
It's as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohh..
I love how you can tell
Ohh..
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me


8.1.05
1:26 PM

mute and me....

Boulevard of broken dreams-Green Day

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do...
I walk alone I walk alone
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do...
I walk alone I walk alone about you now

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone'

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah
(in the background all the way to i'm walking down the line)

Every day I wake up and it's Sunday
Whatever's in my head won't go away
The radio is playing all the usual
And what's a wonderwall anyway

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you...
I walk alone I walk alone
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do...
I walk alone I walk alone

And all the roads we have
to walk along are winding
And all the lights that
lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams

By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do

Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

Cuz maybe
My shadow's the
only one that walks beside me...
saves me
My shallow heart's
the only thing that's beating...
saves me
Sometimes I wish
someone out there will find me...
saves me
'Til then I walk alone'

Sing with me (Sing!)
Sing for the year (Sing It)
Sing for the laughter sing for the tear (C'mon!)
Sing it with me Just for today
Maybe tomorrow
The good Lord will take you away...

*often listening to this song as it's been repeating played on da radio...terjatuh centa tetibe ngan lagu nich..anyway..have to say sori to fazz....i'm using your monitor tau!!!mine melotup tetiber...it's actually my stupid fault anyway..terhalakan my mobile at the monitor...so,kerana contradiction wave yg berbeza seperti tsunami tu,dier tetiber jerk meletup....penatlaa dok try on balik tp tak berjaya...hmmmmmm..benci btol!!anyway,tima kasih banyak2 to Elok for "belanjaing" me with the indonesian vcd...I've got Jelangkung 1,Arisan(my faveret movie!),AADC and Andai Ia Tahu...waaaaa....but kena tunggu dulu,i'm not finish with ma assignment lagi..Yakin Boleh,Rakan Muda!!!still wonder if i should go back....?feeling like i want to but the other part of me does not want to...camner tu???saper vote aku balik???[aku nak naik kapal terbang sebenarnya...funny kan?i'm desperately wants to go on the aeroplane.....;(]


4.1.05
4:08 PM

hari-hariku
i'm back...after +-2 weeks of holidays...macam biasa,hidup kat brisbane nih.tak banyak aktiviti yang menarik..just wandering around city,toowong and indooropilly and stone corner...it's sale/clearance season so most people just wasting their time and money shopping and cruising around shopping mall..tambah2 sekarang nih makin panas(it's officially summer!!),so free aircond kat mall2..and me,back to reality...siapkan assignment yang blom selesai2...anyway,luckily i've finished 1/3 of the assignment but it's not really encouraging as otak makin beku and i dun't really know wut to tell about...but i need to fix maself as i still have a lotsa things to do...about the phone,i've asked the lady....so eventually that house already have a phone line..so,i just need to activate it by calling Telstra...about the internet,kpd sumer yg pakai ethernet card like me,u just need to buy modem and it's going to be ok...pastuh bernadette also already masukkan another couple of stuff and her husband just about to masukkan meja and kerusi for the balcony...heheheehheeh,penuh lagi umah...as for now, i'm still considering to go back to Malaysia...but most probably,insyaallah i will going home...maybe on 6 of Feb(if i can find cheap tix!!!).and Kak Yanti,add book to dah dipasskan kepada kimah...=)