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got couple of stuff to do...and like always,bertangguh lagi...hate those oracle thingy..asal laa susah sangat nak login....still feel tired + a lil' bit of motion sickness....teruk jugak ye?? but,my life cam biasa; bermula with a lot of new stuff and encounter many things that hard to be imagine...apa-apa jeee....
seni dan bakat...
Part I
kenapa seni? kenapa bakat? a day that i've been through today is not always the same as my yesterday or the future...i can't predict what will happen next neither can i have a single thought of what had happened yesterday will actually occured to me...life unpredictable rite?who knows, different people have differet unique abilities that is only authentic to themselves....and i found it's hard for me to mixed around...so, i guess that's not my "bakat" that i can best posses towards others.funny thought but i see how important to let people know that i do want to catch up and talk to them. i found it's hard to do so as i need perfect timing to approach.not that it's bad but i feel bad for not puttin' my best effort to make way for myself to be active and talk a lot...but i just feel happy that even though it's a small things for someone else, but it's actually a big gift from up there.human are like pieces of clothes...dijahit-jahit dan disambungkan...hasilnya,patchwork yang menarik walaupun sometimes ada corak yang tak kena or jahitannya silap...but it's how insan is....nobody is perfect...weakness is not to be blame on but to be work on...dan bakat tak terhad pada kepandaian yang terlihat jelas sahaja,ia juga adalah sesuatu yang tak ketara di mata...
Part II
as for our journey to Springbrook, thank god it was an amazing journey as the scenery is wonderful and it was for the first time that i felt soo sick that i can't even stand for the first 20 mins....sangat sakit..my stomach cam sangat penuh dengan aura-aura kesakitan dan keloyaan.....but it was fun actually...went to the first spot that have been arrange,Natural Bridge....tempatnyer cantik cos the waterfall berada kat tengah-tengah and there's like batu yang sangat panjang merintangi that waterfall and kelihatan seperti jambatan...after that, dek kerana frust tak dapat mandi air terjun, we went to the second spot, Purlingbrook waterfall(kalo tak silap)...the waterfall is like 60m under and we have to hike to get there...challenging eventhough it's very straight forward nyer path...but it's harder when we wanted to get back up there sebab it's almost dark and on the way it's actually dark and a lilttle confusing...yerlaa,perempuan dan hutan tak sinonim..so,cuak jugak rasanyer but just to cool off that eerie feelings with the dark surrounding, i just kept thinking of getting out from there...but it's worth a while as the waterfall tu memang menarik as it's hang very high and it's seem like attached to the sky(cet, hiperball giler)...but it is fun sebab ia really challenge our ketahanan and kesabaran..tak senang nak hiking kat situ as we need to circle that area before samapi to the waterfall..oklaa...n of story....
Part III
so, on the way to Springbrook, we'd do some pengenalan for ppl in da car...so with me, ada Salwa, Nadia, Sarah, Kak Su and Mariam..also tak luper driver kitorg, Syahrom...so,it's like 7 ppl travel in the mpv...just to make sure everybody is not bored so i asked everybody to introduce themselves as ada yang masih tak dikenali...after that we all choose one thing to describe ourselves..as for me, it's always be Goofy from Disney cartoon sbb like my friend says, i am a goofball,goofy tak tentu pasal,always the blur one and is very optimist + extreme happy go lucky eventhough there's a huge problems ahead...as for Sarah, she describes herself as a blue sandal cos she's love freedom, flexibility and openness and for her, blue can be either soft and hard in the same time....as for Salwa, she felt herself like a bee...love sweetness of the life and very appreciate it...but sometimes, a bee can sting too which means eventhough she's kind and accepting but sometimes things can get rough and everyting has it's own limit...for Nadia, she felt herself like Dexter, luv to do crazy experiment with life, intelligent and fun to be with...last but not least, Mariam thinks that she is lke a turtle because she likes to take things slowly but wisely....how fun is that? and also she's quiet like a turtle...seeing yourself differently as something that maybe for some are unreal is fun and somehow related to...opss, Aiza also with us at that time...and she describes herself as a crystal flower...mahal dan tak tersentuh..just chosen hand can have a beautiful crystal flower....
enjoying myself with the internet...just need some change and i think i luv the new skin...it's from one of the story in Gempak...Cheap Shot...
diam sejenak...cuba dengarkan...
saatnya kuberkata
mungkin yg terakhir kalinya
sudahlah lepaskan semua
kuyakin inilah waktunya
mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
dan mungkin bila nanti
kita kan bertemu lagi
satu pintaku jangan
kau coba tanyakan kembali
rasa yang kutinggal mati
seperti hari kemarin
saat semua disini
dan bila hatimu terbangun
bangun dari mimpi mimpimu
membuka hatimu yang dulu
cerita saat bersamaku
mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi
mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
dan mungkin bila nanti
kita kan bertemu lagi
satu pintaku
jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali
rasa yang kutinggal mati
seperti hari kemarin saat semua disini
tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
simpan untukmu sendiri
semua sesal yang kau cari
semua rasa yang kau beri
don't ask cos i'm bored of talking...
kisah hari ini...
tak banyak pun kisahnya...just to make sure that i'd put something in here after all those changing skin stuff that i've put effort on...by the way; dinner last nite was very nice and i lurve the Innes Room...very nice place for such occasion. Syabas also to PQSA for the event as i'm very sure that En. Aziz and all the VIPs were impressed with their hard work to organise the occasion...nice food though!!!thnax to people that chose the songs...waaaa...haven't heard it for a while....and it's very nostalgic to hear it again....tapi apa2 pun; back to work!!!still have lotsa things to do in this small little amount of time...got three assignments due next week....hope that i will learn to stop for a while and start working.....
Standing In The Eyes Of The World
Pahit getir hidup... dan pengorbanan
Terpaksa dihadapi, demi kejayaan
Terdidik sejak mula, tabah berusaha
Tanpa cuba melangkah, tak kemana
Di mana kau berada
Pencapaian tak tiba dengan mudah
( korus )
Kini "Standing In The Eyes Of The World"
Hanyalah selangkah dari nyata
Keazaman membara dijiwa
Menanti saat bebas merdeka
Tiba masa kau melangkah gagah
Bersemangat ke arah matlamat sedaya upaya
Engkau terunggul
Wajar "Standing In The Eyes Of The World"
Harapan yang pernah terkulai layu
Kembali segar mekar bawah bayanganmu
Setiap manusia ingin berjaya
Namun tak semua miliki tuah
Engkau menghampirinya
Kesempatan telah pun tiba...
Now I was sitting waiting wishing
that you believed in superstitions
then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
and I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
and in loving somebody don't make them love you
Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing the fool?
I sing ya songs I dance a dance
I gave ya friends all a chance
putting up with them wasn't worth never having you
and maybe you been through this before
but its my first time
so please ignore
the next few lines cause they're directed at you
I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool
I keep playing your cards
but its not my scene
wont this plot not twist?
I have no place to read?
Keep building me up, then shooting me down
well im already down
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting waiting
Well if I was in your position
Id put down all my ammunition
I'd wondered why'd it taken me so long
But Lord knows that I'm not you
and If I was I wouldn't be so cruel
cause waiting on love ain't so easy to do
Must I always be waiting waiting on you?
Must I always be playing playing the fool?
No I cant always be waiting waiting on you
I cant always be playing playing your fool, foool
got tangle up....
how do i feel? aku rasa macam daun? why daun? entahlaa, tapi aku rasa makin lama makin mereput...macam daun yang hijau, reputnya bukan nampak diluar tapi dari dalam...masih lagi kekal mengutip oksigen tapi tak sesempurna dulu..sekadar yang termampu; to make sure that you'll live...but the rest, life seems very dull...
I'm full of regret
For all things that I've done and said
And I don't know if it'll ever be ok to show
My face 'round here
Sometimes I wonder if I disappear
Would you ever turn your head and look
See if I'm gone
Cause I fear
There is nothing left to say to you
That you wanna hear
That you wanna know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful
Your just innocent
A helpless victim of a spider's web
And I'm an insect
Goin after anything that I can get
So you better turn your head and run
And don't look back
Cause I fear
There is nothing left to say
To you
That you wanna hear
That you wanna know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful
And I've done you so wrong
Treated you bad
Strung you along
Oh shame on myself
I don't know how I got so tangled up
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will be back soon!!!
------>anyway, have a quite a busy day today and very relief that the allowance is finally in....poor me!!
jom mengutip....
the need of internet at home have increase and i cannot wait for the allowance anymore...i dun't understand what make it takes so long...warghh..tahap kebosanan with the whole things make me tired and does not care anymore...my first week of uni, guess it is fun as i am still struggling with Japanese a lil' bit...a lil' confuse but i like it as i keep trying to figure what is what...feeling a lil' bit tired with the whole situation now...and tired wondering how ppl really don't understand you....but it's alrite, as for who i am; i do understand eventhough i do mind...warghhhh...went to CSSE3004 lecture this afternoon,it's different from my previous IT lectures as the lecturer considered us as final student who need to be expose to the real world. i mean, he'd tell us to take the whole course content very serious as it will help us with our future job.and for me, it means a lot as if i don't excel this course, i won't be able to grad...btw, i like the idea of photocopying...i want to be in the photocopying team!!!!hahaha....kak yanti, i did read your newest entry...miss ya soo much...guess that we'd have a good time together...thanks also for every stuff that u'd bring everytime singgah at my place...life is different now cause everybody's changing and they realised the need to improve as the time is running out....
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...
oh my....
wish i still have a lotsa ideas to write about...dun't really got big things happened to me a lot these days..guess that life has getting bored of me...Unit 7 have been very busy lately,a lotsa stuff need to be done..unpacked, phone lines, internet connection seem like the important stuff that need to be settle.i just realised that it is actually hard to manage all of this homey stuff...we always take simple things for granted and i'm bored of waiting for everything to be as usual again. i'm tired, i'm sick and i feel blurry...i dunno what happened but i dun't have a heart to do anything at all...something's missing from me and i dun't know what...i keep looking for it but i'm not sure what i'm looking for and how do i know what i've been looking for...it's like i'm continously walking in circle and just can't break it..abah called me later that nite on my mobile as he can't reach me at home...haven't talked to him for about 3 weeks and i miss talking to him..he'd leave a message on the phone and that's least thing that he'll do cos he never leave any message before...i guess that's what i'm missing...i missed talking to people that used to listen and understand me...i missed people that i used to share my thought,my opinion. i missed the mirror that never fails to make my day brighter than yesterday.i wonder why people are keen to be self-efficient that they forget
how to be happy and feel good about the right things...i felt like a mannequin on the display inside a shop...
Salahkah Aku
Tak Seindah
Hari-hari yang kuidamkan
Untuk bersamamu
Tiada lagi ruang
Dihatimu
Untuk kucurahkan segala
Apa yang ku rasa
Tapi kau tak percaya
Siapa ku dihatimu
Hanya mengganggu hidupmu
Maafkanku
Aku tak berdaya
Membahagiakan kamu
Tiba saatnya
Ku kan pergi jua
Mengakhiri segalanya
Salahkah ku
Hanya mahu menyintaimu
Salahkah aku
mendekati hatimu itu
Salahkah aku
Sekadar menemani dirimu
Salahkahku
Ku tak bisa meninggalkanmu
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