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31.8.04

11:16 PM

atas nama cinta..

Jika cinta berbicara hatiku kau percaya
Usia dewasa mengajar erti cinta
Apalah aku diam tak mampu

Terbatasnya cinta kerna norma dan dogma
Ketulusan hati menjadi tanda tanya
Kenapa aku semakin pilu

Korus:
Dan atas nama cinta terlahir
Aku melihat dunia
Demi jiwa ruang batinku
Kau adalah pendamping jiwaku

Kan usia dewasa mengajar erti cinta
Ketulusan hati menjadi tanda tanya
Kenapa aku semakin pilu

dedicate this song to the special persons in my life; mum dan abah..i miss you all soo much...feeling parent sick rite now..i dun't miss home but i miss my folks....oklaa..later i'll updates more...

30.8.04

11:19 AM

updates!!!
wut a week...wut a week?? dunno why i said that..just being silly again as usual...been bzd myself with lotsa stuff which seem never can be managed by me...anyway,i know that most people are busy rite now with bola..but dun't worry u all still got 6 days from now....i dun't know wut to write bcos i dun't really know wut to write...anyway,feelin' quite happy now cos En. Aziz says that i can do my summer course which means that i'm not going back to Malaysia this yer...poor my mum...i didn't tell her yet...she must be very upset but wut else can i say...i need to do this...just another yer and then i'm going back for good...so,i know penantian itu adalah satu penyeksaan but; we need to sacrifise sumthing to get sumthing,rite??i luv ya mum!!!tunggu aku di Malaysia...

Sheila on 7 - Tunggu Aku di Jakarta
Masih saja kuteringat kata iringi kau pergi
Jadikan sore itu satu janji
Kau akan kembali untukku, serta untuk diriku
Mengingatku walau aku jauh
Akupun sempat janjikan, kukayuh semua mimpiku
Kulabuh tepat di kotamu....
Dan kaupun s'lalu janjikan kau 'kan menungguku datang
Bersatu kembali seperti dulu
Dan bila akupun rindu pada nyamannya kecupmu
Pada indahnya tawamu
Kudendangkan dengan gitar lagu-lagu kesayangan
Sambil kuingat indah wajahmu
Oo.......
Tunggulah aku di Jakartamu
Tempat labuhan semua mimpiku
Tunggulah aku di kota itu
Tempat labuhan semua mimpiku

Sheila on 7 - Just For My Mom

Sometimes I feel my heart so lonely but it's ok
No matter how my girl just left me and I don't care
Whenever the rain comes down and it's seems there's none to hold me
She's there for me, she's my mom

Just for my mom, I write this song
Just for my mom, I sing this song
Just for my mom, can wipe my tears
Just for my mom, can only here

Trap in a subway, can't remember the day but I feel ok
Damped in damn situation, in every condition with no conclusion
Whenever the rain comes downand it's seems there's none to hold me
She's there for me, she's my mom
You may say I have none to cover me under the sun
She's there for me, she's my mom

26.8.04

11:28 AM

Hidup adalah perjuangan..bersabar itu juga adalah berjuang....
a friend gave this to me...this story really make me feeling the need to be more patient and understanding...i know it's hard to be patient and stand for ur own principles...but sometimes we need to fight for it...lebih-lebih lagi berjuang untuk melakukan perkara yang baik..myself is like a new born kupu-kupu...still seeking my way out through the small hole of my kepompong..to fight i need courage and support but; too much support,i will never learn how to fight...and i want to be a beautiful kupu-kupu yang terbang diantara bunga-bunga yang indah....
Kisah seekor Kupu-kupu

Seseorang menemukan kepompong seekor kupu-kupu.Suatu hari lubang kecil muncul.Dia duduk mengamati dalam beberapa jam calon kupu-kupu itu ketika dia berjuang dengan memaksa dirinya melewati lubang kecil itu.

Kemudian kupu-kupu itu berhenti membuat kemajuan.Kelihatannya dia telah berusaha semampunya dan dia tidak bisa lebih jauh lagi. Akhirnya orang tersebut memutuskan untuk membantunya. Dia mengambil sebuah gunting dan memotong sisa kekangan dari kepompong itu.Kupu-kupu tersebut keluar dengan mudahnya. Namun, dia mempunyai tubuh gembung dan kecil, sayap-sayap mengkerut.Orang tersebut terus mengamatinya karena dia berharap bahwa, pada suatu saat, sayap-sayap itu akan mekar dan melebar sehingga mampu menopang tubuhnya, yang mungkin akan berkembang seiring dengan berjalannya waktu.

Semuanya tak pernah terjadi. Kenyataannya, kupu-kupu itu menghabiskan sisa hidupnya merangkak di sekitarnya dengan tubuh gembung dan sayap-sayap mengkerut. Dia tidak pernah bisa terbang. Yang tidak dimengerti dari kebaikan dan ketergesaan orang tersebut adalah bahwa kepompong yang menghambat dan. perjuangan yang dibutuhkan kupu-kupu untuk melewati lubang kecil adalah jalan Tuhan untuk memaksa cairan dari tubuh kupu-kupu itu ke dalam sayap-sayapnya sedemikian sehingga dia akan siap terbang begitu dia memperoleh kebebasan dari kepompong tersebut.

Kadang-kadang perjuangan adalah suatu yang kita perlukan dalam hidup kita. jika Tuhan membiarkan kita hidup tanpa hambatan perjuangan, itu mungkin justru akan melumpuhkan kita. Kita mungkin tidak sekuat yang semestinya yang dibutuhkan untuk menopang cita-cita dan harapan yang kita mintakan. Kita mungkin tidak akan pernah dapat "Terbang" Sesungguhnya Tuhan itu Maha Pengasih dan maha Penyayang. Kita memohon kekuatan...Dan Tuhan memberi kita kesulitan-kesulitan untuk membuat kita tegar.Kita memohon kebijakan...Dan Tuhan memberi kita berbagai persoalan hidup untuk diselesaikan agar kita bertambah bijaksana.Kita memohon kemakmuran...Dan Tuhan memberi kita Otak dan Tenaga untuk dipergunakan sepenuhnya dalam mencapai kemakmuran. Kita memohon Keteguhan Hati...Dan Tuhan memberi Bencana dan Bahaya untuk diatasi. Kita memohon Cinta...Dan Tuhan memberi kita orang-orang bermasalah untuk diselamatkan dan dicintai. Kita Memohon kemurahan / kebaikan hati...Dan Tuhan memberi kita kesempatan-kesempatan yang silih berganti. Begitulah cara Tuhan membimbing Kita...

Apakah jika saya tidak memperoleh yang saya inginkan, berarti bahwa saya tidak mendapatkan segala yang saya butuhkan? Kadang Tuhan tidak memberikan yang kita minta, tapi dengan pasti Tuhan memberikan yang terbaik untuk kita, kebanyakan kita tidak mengerti / mengenal, bahkan tidak mau menerima rencana Tuhan, padahal justru itulah yang terbaik untuk kita.Tetaplah berjuang...berusaha...dan berserah diri...
Jika itu yang terbaik maka pasti Tuhan akan memberikannya untuk kita....

18.8.04

10:25 PM

My all time fave. quotes..
when u're feeling down,i hope i'll be by ur side to make u smile..and if i am the one who make u feelin' down,i'm so sorry...

We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for.
~ Professor Keating (Robin Williams) in "Dead Poet's Society"

People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.~ Elizabeth Kubler Ross

I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.~ Bill Cosby

After silence that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music.
~ Aldous Huxley

Ability is what you're capable of. Motivation determines what you do. Attitude determines how well you do it. ~Lou Holtz

17.8.04

8:51 PM

Warisan Wanita Terakhir
dah lama nak dengar lagu ni tp tak dapat2...dedicate to Dennis and sesaper jerk yg suker lagi ni...

Bila kita dalam salam perpisahan
Namun aku tetap bersamamu
Ku rasa bagai satu sentuhan
Dalam mimpi ku terbayang wajahmu

Dalam dirimu penuh kelembutan
Semakin hari namun semakin rindu
Tapak tanganmu akan ku genggam
Akan ku sentuh ketika sayu

Untukmu akan ku semaikan
Cinta yang sejati tiada bandingan
Dalam kerinduan ku sendiri
Dalam kesyahduan kita hadapi

( korus )
Warisan wanita terakhir
Jiwa raga ku serah
Kau ingin milik segalanya
Di mana kasihmu tiada kau memberi
Apa yang ku perlu hanya kau dapat memberi
Hanya satu yang ku pinta kasih
Kau warisan wanita yang terakhir

Dalam dirimu penuh kelembutan
Semakin hari namun semakin rindu
Tapak tanganmu akan ku genggam
Akan ku sentuh ketika sayu

Untukmu akan ku semaikan
Cinta yang sejati tiada bandingan
Dalam kerinduan ku sendiri
Dalam kesyahduan kita hadapi

( korus )
Warisan wanita terakhir
Jiwa raga ku serah
Kau ingin milik segalanya
Di mana kasihmu tiada kau memberi
Apa yang ku perlu hanya kau dapat memberi
Hanya satu yang ku pinta kasih
Kau warisan wanita yang terakhir

Hati sucimu ingin ku miliki
Hanya satu yang ku pinta... Kasih...
Kau warisan wanita ynag terakhir
Kau warisan wanita... Yang terakhir...

16.8.04

11:33 PM

saya dan kegilaan saya..
rindu..rindu..that's the first word that keep on resonance in my mind rite now. i dun't know why or how...huhhuhuhh,because of this,it keeps remind me of how i miss so many things...miss my mum..miss my dad,miss Ain,miss all my mischief and crazee bros....my big sista...dan segala-galanya...but i think wut i miss most is myself...weird rite??but i think i am not acting like i was before..i can't seem to remember biler kali terakhir aku gelak yang btol2 gelak...it's all tense now...never mind but one thing that i'd miss second most is everybody in my batch...rindu pada keakraban dulu....

Terima Kasih Teman

Terima kasih temanku
Atas sudimu menjengukku
Dan sentiasa menemaniku
Menghiasi ruang waktu
Yang kosong biru
Lantas hadirmu di sisiku
Membungakan seri wajahku

Terima kasih temanku
Atas ikhlasmu menjemputku
Menjadi tetamu mu
Lewat di kejauhan itu
Lalu kau menghidangkan untukku
Segala jamuan rindu
Menjadi santapan kalbu

Terima kasih temanku
Atas segala gembiramu
Yang mencantas pergi segala dukaku
Lalu kau titipkan bahagiamu buatku
Untuk ku anyam irama lagu
Menjadi penawar rindu
Di saat kau sepi dariku

Terima kasih temanku untuk kesekian kali
Atas memori yang amat indah ini
Dan jika ditakdirkan Ilahi
Kita tidak sehaluan lagi
Izinkan aku untuk mengingati
Segala kenangan manis ini
Yang sekian lama bersama kita layari

11:10 AM

four weeks in uni
hmm..it's seems like time is running out very fast...dun't really have anything to write just wanna say that i've got one class test next monday and in the week after i'll attend my first prac exam for COMP2302...very anxious about it eventhough i'm kinda enjoy this subject...wut happened last week?? nuttin..except we've got first UQMSA bbq meeting at the Roma Parklands...foods were soo nice and the place is pretty cool too...it's look so much better now than 1 and half years before...rugi btol tak bawak kamera....some more,been struggling to finish my assignments and did so preparation for tute and stuff...basically,my aim now is to try to read all the books that i'd borrowed from the library...ending: i'm sooo frustrated that Kaer does not win anything in AF...i think he has good talent and can sing very well...eventhough i said Adam is good but i think he is better...tak paham btol...tipah tertipu..!=)

Dedicate to all my friends & Kaer;
Ikhlas tapi jauh...

Bila bila kiranya diriku perlu
Hari yang murung
Terdengar nada yang riang ria
Sekali suara meyakinkan jiwa
Kaku langkah mengaguminya
Kaku menerimanya

Selagi bahuku
Memikul bebannya
Selagi hayatku
Merasa siksa
Selama senyuman
Menjadi senyumku
Ku bawa wajahmu
Walau diriku jauh...
Jauh...

12.8.04

9:40 AM

Ekka..?
it's Ekka's holiday yesterday..doing nuttin and i'm not going...been prepared for Mynn's burfday party the whole day(not whole maybe half)....heheheh..got nuttin to write really but i feel the urgency to update my blog as i dun't have anything to do(which is not true!!!)...anyway..lotsa things happened this week;i think...later, maybe i'll write some more about this things...until then..got to go..hi and hello..back in here again...okla..first highlight for today; yesterday we'd an extravaganza surprise party for Mynn..eventhough burfday dier jatuh pada hari ini,we all wanted to be the first person to wish her...it was a nice party as a lotsa ppl turned up with extra food eventhough t'lah dipesan agar membawa diri dan perut sahaja last nite...(nice one~,thanx anyway!).So, kesimpulannya SLAMAT HARI LAHIR to Mynn..nway,wut else happen??takder aper pon, just mengada2kan citer utk membanyakkan lagi pembaca blog nih...hehehehe,just kidding..tak kisahlaa brapa orang yang bacer...as long as aku puas dapat throw everything that i feel,i think in here...this is a place where my rite to talk freely and freedomly allowed...oh.ya..one more thing,did watched AF siri ke-8(kalo tak silap...)bersama2 ngan Dennis,Salwa,Fazz and Mynn..taklaa layan sgt but i shall say dat aku dah jatuh cinta tahap cipan kat Kaer...!sgt comel....suker tgk dier menari!!!=)

10.8.04

12:10 AM

hari-hariku

Bila bila kiranya diriku perlu
Hari yang murung
Terdengar nada yang riang ria
Sekali suara meyakinkan jiwa
Kaku langkah mengaguminya
Kaku menerimanya
wut can i say..haven't update my bubbly blogga for a while..i've tried to save my d/load quota cos i don't want to waste it on surfing the internet..but it's seem that i cannot resist the temptation to write...nutting much happening to me rite now..this morning;woke up quite early,subuh berjemaah with my fellow sahabat...then we'd some exercise to energize everybody agar long lasting cam battery energizer!!!(hahaha...)then,9.30 am went to meet Mr Begbie...then went to the lab...and final destination; to the lecture theatre for the only lecture that day...with Peter Sutton...ari nih blaja pasal ALU - Arithematic and Logarithmic sumthing..entahlaa..dah luperlaa plak..anyhow;balik got msg from my kazen; that my mom dah bertukar profesion menjadi doktor bedah tak bertauliah...she'd operates the only flower horn fish yg garang tahap mak enon<---pinjam phrase Huda..so,now our home is quiet cos nobody kecoh2 pasal that fish anymore sbb pembedahan terkezutt itu tidak berjaya...couple of things that i wonder; since when my mom is very interesting in becoming a vet???and manalaa dier dpt idea membedah seekor ikan??esp. ikan yg sekor tuh...dier nak kasik makan pon jauh sekali;ni kang nak pegang??opss..enough about me...i wanna talk about this above lyric ..firstly;it's dedicated to all my friends di sini..yg di sana tunggu lagu lain;nnt aku dedicate...i know that everybody is busy rite now...incl. me; and sorry for being a lil' bit of static(a lot...)and i meant every word of this song sbb it's wut u all do to me...menerima dengan begitu terbuka walaupon kadangkala ia menyakitkan...sahabat2ku yg baik ini sentiasa ader and always make my day...

3.8.04

4:49 PM

uni..
second day in uni...not that bz at this time...i dun't know y but it's just lectures and pracs at this moment..but it doesn't mean that i have a lotsa times to mingle around....still need to catch up....been at the lab for an hour..not so many ppl(as usual!!)hahhaa..i dunno where's this ppl been..maybe that've finish their lab assesments or maybe they prefer to do it at home..i not sure but surely for me, i need to go the lab cos either way i'll never finish mine...i'm such a lazy grll!!thinking about watching My Neighbour Totoro tomorrow nite at 8.30 pm...is anybody interested to join me??if so,please give me a buzz...i know not too many ppl like to watch anime movie but i luv Miyazaki artworks!!it's very unique...jomlaa....it's much better if they got Metropolis too at the schonell....hehehehe...

1.8.04

3:10 PM

Happy F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P. day!got a message from my frenzz last nite...we haven't contact each other for a while...hehehehe,sorry sahabat;i'm such a lousy friend!!Anyway,friendship day is coming(3rd of August);so to all people that is my friends...HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!!!thanx for being there and sorry for all my wrong doings and problem that i gave to u...hope dengan segala wut we've been through,we've got to know each other much more close,to understand and to accept all the weakness antd strength that we have,to forgive and forget and to respect each other..ukhuwwah fillah!!!

WHAT I OWE YOU
© Mary Olszewski
This is a list
Of what to expect
From me to you
With love and respect
I owe you an ear
Cuz u would always pay attention
I owe you a shoulder
Cuz on yours lies my affection
I owe u a hand
You always helped out
I owe u advice
Of that there’s no doubt
I owe u respect
Of that your full
I owe trust
With my secrets you were cool
I owe you knowledge
You taught me so much
I owe you love
Deep in my heart, you touched
I owe you a friend
Who is honest and true
I owe you my life
Because of what you still do