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30.6.05

12:58 AM

holidays + going away + nervous + 6th July + call Malaysia + i'm hopeless + wish me the best + i'm bored + miss ma homme verrrryyyy bad + i need more money + i don't know what i am doing + i don't want to think + i just miss everything + why can't we stayed like before? + fun days + hard days + coffe + i am tired = got nuting to write about. just feel nervous about a lot of things. sadly, i'm not looking forward for anything this holidays...wonder why? hmmm....again, sadly, i dun't really have the answers, but if it's the best for all; wut else can i do?
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sometimes, i wondered wut make people do wut they do to others that sometimes can cause somebody to feel pain or happiness without realising that some of those action really make this other person feel deep into their heart of the other's action.....pretty much i can't really describe wut i feel now and then for my past...is it really matter as i dun't feel the need to grief for the things that will not returned to me again....
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25.6.05

11:30 PM

officially, it's winter holidays now~..yeay....cepat giler one sem dah berlalu...another 2 to go...takder aper nak diupdate...just buzzing around, busying myself nagging around 'bout ma life...nuting extra penting happened, except; i'm the lucky one to finish....hahahahahaah..bongkak..bongkak...BUT,got 5 days ahead to go through with nuting to do..have to wait for others to finish sebab gue nggak bisa drive...lagi nggak ada temen yang bisa libur bersama-sama...so, buried the arrogance in ma self, i went to library and borrowed some books...hahahahahah...tulaa,masa sekolah, tak pernah jejak kaki kat library, biler dah sangap baru reti nak bacer buku....plus, with no internet connection in da homme for a while...make me more dead lice...like the kodok under the tempurung...but luckily,Fazz did sambung the connection for another 3 months...wohoo...but pretty much, i'm still boring...how i wish i'm in Malaysia now....boley tiap-tiap hari menghadap part of laut China Selatan from my aunty's homme..sambil makan kerepok lekor dengan ikan kembung celup teppung...wahh,nikmatnya dunia....~anyway,itu hanya impian semata-mata..unless i'd bought ticket back homme...i can do that....but for the time being, just hold the dream for a bit of time~

24.6.05

3:37 PM

How To Clean a Living Room in No Time at All
Follow these step-by-step instructions and your living room will be neat in less than 15 minutes!

Difficulty: Easy

Time Required: 15 Minutes

Here's How:

First, collect any dishes and glasses around the room
and take them to the kitchen. Put them away or into the
dishwasher, out of sight.

Next, collect all trash and garbage
(newspapers, wrappers, old magazines, etc.)
and throw them into the wastebasket.

Then, collect anything that doesn't belong in the living room
(clothing, toys, mail, project equipment)
and throw them into the box.

Take both the wastebasket and the box to
the garage, basement, closet or other out-of-the-way spot.
Don't put items away now. You don't have time.
Just get them out of sight!

Grab 2 washcloths -- one damp (but wrung out very dry),
and the other completely dry. Quickly wipe off picture
frames and mirrors, first with the damp, then the dry rag.

Next, wipe all objects and tabletops with the damp rag,
and remove moisture with the dry cloth.

Neatly stack magazines or books on
the coffee table. Rearrange decorative objects
to an attractive position.

If you have some around, bring in a fresh
flower arrangement or fresh plants and place
them around the room.

Spritz a light air freshener into the room.

If you have any time left, quickly vacuum the major traffic areas.

Tips:
Move quickly!
Stash unneeded items out of sight to be sorted later.
Delegate kitchen and bathroom cleaning to others, if possible.
Be a gracious host -- stop cleaning and concentrate on your guests once they arrive.
Don't try to do too much. The key here is quick!

What You Need:
Waste Basket for Discards
Empty Box for Items to Keep
2 Washcloths--one damp and one dry
Room Freshener
Vacuum (if you have time)
Fresh Flowers and Plants
Soothing Music

*sometimes make sumthing clean does not required a word to it...just need to be aware of it..=)and yet, it ain't hard to do it...*

12.6.05

11:07 PM

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only two words..."SELAMAT BERJUANG" to all my fellow UQ's friends who is going to sit for the 1st semester exam... May Allah will be with us dan permudahkan langkah dan ilmu kita on that days.....and to others yang bakal atau sedang menghadapi peperiksaan..same to you...got the image from this site that analyse your study style....check it here.

8.6.05

6:06 PM

drifted away~

pretty occupied this week.. i mean my time and studies really put me off from those happy things to do...guess must also, cos exams meant everything for most of the person called student at this moment...but really, i'm too did put myself to study and happy to say i'd learned a lot for the past 4 days~still couple of things make me feel anxious, not comfortable and not happy... i try hard not to be in that position but there's always sumthing come up that make it feels so right.....hate it~

7.6.05

2:31 AM

unintended

it comes when i'm least expecting it....telling u this truth is like telling the whole truth about me~ why for one reason u care about what i feel? why..why..why?istidraj...i'm sad to think this is the happiest feeling i've ever felt cos from the beginning it's not true.....take it away from me cos when the time come, He will make sure it is the rite thing for me to do....for all of our hearts, there is a keeper that hold it so that no one can break it~

6.6.05

1:43 AM

how does it's really feel?
today is the slowest day in my life....but now i wish time won't running this fast....pretty much my time were occupied with a lot of stuff today....and tomorrow will be the same....it's SWOT vac but it won't be the same SWOT vac as before....pretty much thanx to people that really inspired me to be prepared and keep me stress on not getting to catch up....that's why i keep feeling heartache lately....wonder why, but i think it's the effect that u get when u're depressed...also,maybe cos of my meal takings..too much junk foods and fatty stuff....must keep healthy....mental and physical....but really, stress really can cause a lot of harm and make people do crazy things....thanx God, that sometimes U'd showed me the way to be patient and being grateful...also thanx to people that do keep up with my sudden changes..and let that stupid nuisance of mine as a joke and for telling me that it's alrite to feel that way..especially my mum...thanx God for that beauty creation of Him...others; dunno..i'm not really in mood of giving out my thoughts now cos in the first place i am not really sure if anybody would listen...i've been in that condition before and will never escape...so i just happy to stay in that silent mode....and wut u read here is really wut i want to say..and that's all...nothing to hide cos i'm not trying to escape from anything..and if i do, it's my mistakes.....

If fears what makes us decide,
Our future journey,
I'm not along for the ride,
Cuz I'm still yearning,
To try and touch the sun,
My fingers burning,
Before you're old you are young,
Yeah I'm still learning

3.6.05

9:44 PM

the end of the learning days

it's just ended.....all the assignments and classes..so glad but i think it's so soon cos i can't remember if i did learn sumthing...it's a short today for me...did not do much today...went to uni for my oral test, then went home, then went to uni again for the mamak's nite....met a lot of people and feel a lil' bit surprise cos i can't believe myself that i'd talked to somebody that i didn't imagined will talk to....feel a lil' bit guilty cos i do take wut people say about this-this person that i didn't bother to discover it myself....i saw my group mate too..couple of them but everybody seems to be in their own crowd so i guess everybody didn't bother to say hi or wut so ever...also, i'd come clean with somebody and guess all of us do feel relief that finally we all know that for some reason there is always a turning point.....and really, it's just a temporary mad feeling....but it was a good event though and nice kek batik~nice hanging out with all of you too~....now are watching Shallow Hal and somehow i like it cos it's funny but do teach sumthing....W.A.K.AR.I.M.S.E.N......atamaga warui

1.6.05

11:29 PM

mari belajar

it's already week 13th...meaning next week is going to be SWOT vac~
tomorrow is our final demo for this semester for Project Management...gosh~
my two last assignment were both sux....~
therefore i need to strive for the final.....to do so, i need that study environment
do; -remind me not to play -listening to music - and sleep a lot + eat a lot~