/SYAHIDA/

4.2.08

2:29 AM

i wonder myself, what type really i am...it's been a long day today and i wonder if my life is great as i believe it is....?i wish that my life is like Korean/Japanese dramas that i watched...the ending was always good and happy...no one get hurts, and even so...always there is somebody that could endure it. in real life, i didn't know if i could endure it in the same way. life as it is, was created beautifully by Him... i am sure of that as He created both man and women to feel the need of each other...He also created human and tree as to show that we can be both different living beings that can't be set apart.on top of everything, He'd show that to any living things, love conquer most of our life, soul and mind...without feeling love and empathy, this world wouldn't be as beautiful as what we see,taste and feel now...regardless of that, still some people does not appreciate love as much as to bear others but building hatred and anger inside them....why i am writing this? i didn't know myself..but there's sometimes in my life that i decided to shut the love feeling inside me.. i never believe that love really can comfort me. i never found that actually in my life...when i started to like and love, i fear that soon, i'll be losing it..and sometimes, it does happened...i was frustrated, and it's hurt...between family, friends and all...i always losing their attention, patient and of course love, slowly..i wonder if i didn't love them enough or is it because they didn't feel the need to love me anymore? it was always frustrating....but as i see around me, i can't stop myself to love and like..but then, i decide to just let it be my secret and matter to be ignored...it's better to smile even when people didn't know how you feel...